LoneStarPackersFan
Cheesehead
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I am a football fan.
I am a Packers fan first, but I am an NFL fan in general. I love NCAA, the Badgers, Arena League, peewee and even CFL. I love football. Been a fan for over 30 years.
The last game I truly enjoyed watching this team was in our playoff win against Dallas (the Dez catch game) 2 seasons ago. I said all throughout the Seahawks game, based on the way we kept settling for FGs that we would wind up losing the game.
I have said since immediately after the game that teams dont lose those types of games and return the same. We have seen over the last 2 seasons that this team is not the same.
I have said all that before. What I have never said is this:
I am not the same.
I have become hyper critical of this team, and even when we are winning, I see very little positive. I thought that this was due to playing fantasy football, and to having other distractions, that made me feel less and less attached to my beloved lifelong team, so I stopped playing fantasy football, closing a league I had ran for over 5 seasons.
I then thought that it may be due to too much alcohol during the games, making me more and more on edge. So I stopped drinking during the games. Outside of one or 2 night games, no drinks in the last 2 seasons during the games.
Today, while watching with my Colts fan wife, and baby daughter, I spent the entire game screaming and angry. My daughter watched this, my wife watched it (shes used to it). I realized that my daughter was reacting to my anger, and thenI realized it...
I get no joy watching the Packers anymore. I dont enjoy the way that they make me feel. It no longer is fun. Win or loss, the end feeling is almost no difference.
In years past, it was fun, even when we lost. It hurt, but it was always fun. Now, it feels like a job, and one that I hate going to each day. It feels like I am spending all weekend waiting for the game to end, not waiting for it to come on. That realization hurts because in my family, my circle of friends, neighbors and co-workers, I am known as the Packers guy.
I haven't missed a game in years. Now, I dont know if I will be watching for some time. I dont consider myself a fair weather fan, but I am sure some will assume it. That's fine.
I may continue to post here from time to time, but there is a good chance I wont until something major shakes up in Titletown.
I will continue watching football, but in the way I watch basketball or baseball: as a pleasant distraction from time to time.
I will no longer live and die with each snap, each kick, each week of Packers football. Its just not worth it anymore.
Im going upstairs to read my daughter a bedtime book now.
Until then,
Steve.
It's never wrong to sit back and take stock every once in awhile